Chapter 27: True Identity

追求，这个让我又爱又怕的男人，我也许这一辈子都不会去找张国英，我会把对张国英的这份爱永远地埋藏于心里。想他的时候就到海棠花下去散散步，就这样这一辈子就足够了。

When I encountered Liu Hao, I had no choice but to find Zhan Guoyin. At that nt, findin hiwas best option.

就是因为遇到了刘昊，让我不得不去找张国英。因为此时我只有去找他，才是我最好的出路。

If I hadn''''t t Zhan Guoyin, I ht have loved Liu Hao and possibly devoted life to hi advancin and retreatin toether, strivin toether, devisin strateies for hi and pacifyin the world. However, because of Zhan Guoyin''''s presence, I felt that it would be a betrayal if I fell in love with soone other than hi Zhan Guoyin could rry and love soone else first, but I couldn''''t allow self to be that person.

如果没有遇到张国英，我很可能会爱他，并且很可能会倾尽一生与他共同进退，共同拼搏，为他出谋划策，平定四方。可是因为有了张国英这一个人，我感觉如果我爱上了张国英以外的人，那么对张国英就是背叛，他张国英可以先结婚，先爱上别人，但是我不能允许我自己做那个第一人。

I wasn''''t entirely sure if Zhan Guoyin still felt the sa way about when I went to Lianzhou in the future. He ht have fallen in love with soone else or even rried by now. Nevertheless, I wanted to find out for self. If that were the case, I would quietly leave, foret hi and put hiout of nd for the rest of life.

去凉州我也不是很确定张国英对我还是如初，他说不定爱上了别人，说不定已经有了妻子，可是我还是想自己去确定一下，如果他真的如此，那么我也会一个人默默地离开，把他忘记，一辈子忘掉。